distracted

I allowed delay to happen,

I got distracted from my purpose.

the tasks of the day/ filled my mind with a hazes

and I did not do you called me for.

I did not focus on your kingdom,

I did not do the tasks you gave me.

I was confused by the every day, by the ephemeral solid world around me–

Not the truth of You.

I wandered away distracted,

I felt overwhelmed with what I must do. I tried to handle it alone.

And I did not trust in You

I confess my arrogance; I confess my mistakes; I’ve been selfish, and gluttonous, and lustful to the brim.

I’ve been arrogant and prideful. I thought I could do everything on a whim.

I was wrong, Dear Lord. I come back humble and broken.

Again, learning the mistake I’ve done

10,000 times before.

I hope to not make it any more. I pray to not make any more.

To let you work in my life, to let you handle things–

it goes so much better, so much smoother,

when I do.

I know that!

I’ve experienced it.

I can do nothing on my own.

Even Jesus said it.

If that’s true of him,

It is definitely true of me.