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  • Bridegroom’s reminder

    building tension,

    boiling

    must stay calm, not too eager

    stay focused on the Now, in this present moment

    enjoy the feast when it comes but it is not Now.

    It is not here, yet

    things must be soft, and dry,

    for now.

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    sleep must happen.

    intimacy shared is not yet

    a phantom ache fills sacks

    overcooked pasta that wants to become rigid

    Breathe deeply,

    keep the blood flowing.

    ease the tension

    Breathe deeply

    relax the muscles

    that day is not today.

    That moment is not now

    focus on the now

  • Gluttony rears

    I feel the rumble in my stomach.

    Gluttony rears its head,

    cake, and sweets, and frosted-mountains,

    a stomach distended,

    loose skin that will not leave

    a body expecting fat.

    prayer helps, but a miracle is needed.

    I beseech my Maker.

    I know He wants His temple,

    my body,

    to be its best.

  • Abba

    calmer of frayed nerves

    gentle nurturer,

    my Abba Father

    My lover and knower of my soul

    I scream in Your shoulder

    You comfort me in my pain

    You wish to know, for me to tell You

    You want to bear it for me

    I let You

    though sometimes I don’t want to.

    Sometimes I want to hold it myself

    It is an act of vulnerability

    to let someone else carry my wounds

    of such tender, vulnerable, perception

    and tender, Vulnerable heart

    To let another bear my burden

    to let another, hear my cries at night.

    You want to do that for me.

    But You do not take it from me.

    You only take what I give.

  • It happens

    When God says a thing will happen,

    It happens.

    It may take a month,

    It may take a year,

    It happens.

    It may take over 100 years,

    It happens.

    It may take several hundred years,

    But when God says a thing will happen,

    It happens.

    When God makes a promise,

    He keeps it.

    When God says He will do a thing

    He does it.

    God makes no threats.

    God only promises.

    When God says “A thing will happen,”

    It happens.

    It Happens.

    It HAPPENS!

  • Joy of your Bride

    I cannot begin to imagine

    the joy of being Your bride

    to share Your feast,

    to have Your peace

    to finally be in that tide

    of no more pain, and sorrow, and tears wiped away

    is beyond my imagining to fully conceive of that day.

  • overwhelm

    a shadow looms.

    choices weighing

    weighing through the gloom

    choices to make

    Roads to walk

    tasks to complete

    dogs to guide.

    creatures to care for

  • Rivers

    run high on a rainy day,

    roots are covered.

    Banks are full

    glory shines brightly.

    Beauty and all His doings and ways

    are a joy to behold

    I saw on the surface

  • faith over fear

    I have faith and fear,

    respect and reverence

    trust and belief

    trust over terror

  • Pride

    The usefulness of pride

    this a seeking of the self’s

    a desire, a lust

    of self, of me, I

    this destroys families

    You destroy cities,

    he destroyed neighborhoods, provinces,

    he’ll any destroy entire nations.

    You made me wonder if you’re worthy of my time,

    you’re not.

    My pride is not worth my time,

    my pride is worth less than my shit.

    You’re a killer, how many times I neglected to ask for help

    making so many things worse

  • prayer 1

    Prayer.

    A glorious, marvelous thing

    to speak to our King:

    Directly,

    to approach boldly,

    to bring petition, request, anguish, and joy, and praise.

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    Many forgotten reverence,

    but only because of the boy child that was born,

    which God gave to us, His son

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    He shared that he may have siblings

    and he’d be the first in all things

    that we may pray

    and approach

    and connect

    and speak to him.

    whether through sound or thought.

    He knows our heart.

    He knows our joy or despair.

    He has walked with us there