Hi. I hurt you. I cause you pain. I turn back to you.
I return. I turn to You,
away from my sin.
Tag: addiction
Gluttony poem
Cookies
gluttony is my sin
at least it has been for a while.
We talk of all the others, but not
That one. Why
is that?
Truth or lies poem
truth or lies I’m standing in
they resonate beneath my skin.
I’ve known my doubt,
I’m filled with fear.
it rings in me from ear to ear.
From my toes to my head I feel like I’m drowning.
Yet I stand in You.
You have me surrounded in Your Light and Your Glory and Your Joy tries to reach me.
Your peace feels just out of reach, Beyond the clouds of haze and confusion.
The fear, I know not from where, that fills me to the roots of my hair
paralyzed to move,
afraid to make a sound,
to move will make it worse.
Indecision abounds.
walking with Christ
I take steps in Christ. I walk back and forth
I learn to walk again on legs that
can’t go forth.
I learned this new skill I learned this new thing
as I learn to walk again,
a new way of moving,
a new way to attend my faith and my will.
A new way to Be.
this skill of walking with these things of legs.
These things at the ends of my limbs
as I take steps for the first time, it
should have happened years ago and
yet it still feels new.
I stumble and fall
and I cracked my head.
I cry and hurt, and I see that I’ve bled.
The alcohol and weed are the things I use to soothe my pain.
To ease the wound,
to try to wrap it up again. As I walk in Jesus, I cry to You instead.
You are my peace and my comfort.
You heal the wounds better than I ever could. Walking with You
is harder than before. Walking with You
Means going through a door of challenge and difficulty and hardship
I will never guess.
All I know is it’s not easy.
And it’s a skill. I confess
there are times I want it easy. There are times I want it not to be
and yet it’s better to walk with You,
to follow in Your footsteps. It’s better to walk in You,
to cling to Your side
though it makes and shatters my pride.
new spiral
My mind needs something
else to spiral on. Not
my worries or my concerns or my fears. Focus
on the Word of God. Scripture memory
is better
Lies and truth poem
I’m still going through that valley of addiction.
I can’t yet say I’m fully free,
but I see the path. I See the Light.
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I see the lies and truth
I heard some truth growing up,
but I also heard a lot of lies.
like the lie that “pornography is normal”;
that “pornography is healthy”
that’s a lie.
“pornography is good for exploring”
that’s another line.
stripping away the lies isn’t
the same as choosing to believe truth.
Gluttony
cookies
Gluttony is my sin,
cakes, frosting,
at least it has been for a while.
breads, juices,
We talk of all the others, but not have that one.
eggs and meats
Why is that?
lies and truth
I heard some truth growing up
but I also heard a lot of lies.
like the lie that pornography is
normal
that pornography is
healthy
that’s a lie.
pornography is good for exploring
that’s another lie
stripping away the lies
isn’t the same as
choosing
to believe the Truth
valley of addiction
I’m still going through
that valley of
Addiction.
I can’t yet say I’m fully free,
but I see the path and
I See the Light.
Chains unbroken
They clink and rattle
they pull and strain
the heat to melt them burns my skin, It seems
I shake and scream
I know they dissolve
there are more there than I thought
they’ve wrapped me tight
Yet they break
they will not hold me forever.
I am bought with the blood of the Lamb.
I am covered
the blood soaks through
me and the chains
the binding dissolves
repeated sin strengthens them
my strength alone strengthens them
Rely on the blood
rely on His strength
rely on the blood of the Lamb
rely on that strength
Martin Write 