I am beginnings 1

I am beginnings

I am a challenge overcome

I am victorious because of the Son

I am a child of my King

I am His joy and His delight

I am a royal offspring grafted in and fruitful, I hope to ever be

I hoped to be a prism for His light

I hope to build what I can

I hope what I build stands

in my own effort is nothing, with Your help is all.

the master craftsman leads me.

I answer and obey His call. I do not understand it. I do not know where He leads

I feel at a loss for words. I feel at a loss for these:

comprehension, understanding, the boundaries of the world,

my flesh, my sense of self,

the limits of who I love.

my hatred, my debauchery, my lust: I bid you goodbye.

my hope, my connection, My peace: I bet you welcome.

my Christ, my King, I am Yours.

Choice

There are things I could give that He does not care for,

That He does not want,

There are things I could give that He would actively discard.

Things I give not because I want to,

but because I’m supposed to.

He wants a choice.

He wants to be chosen.

So he gives us options.

What do we choose?

Do we listen to Him?

Do we obey or do we choose something else?

Clay molded

I am but clay

I am molded by

the Claymaker.

I’m molded by the One who made me.

He knows what He made me for.

He wants to work with me

but still respects that

I have a choice.

He respects that He knows what He made me for.

do I respect what I was made for?

do I honor what I was made for?

Do I honor who I was made for?

Do I care what I was made for?

I want to I try to I care

I want to work with my maker.

I want to be what he wishes me to be.

I want to be what he desires of me.

I want to give him what He desires of me.

He has given me so much. How can I give Him less?

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I feeling

Discouragement, delay

God answers:

Deuteronomy 31 verse 2.

I look it up

 I am 120 years old, and I am no longer able to be your leader. And besides that, the Lord your God has told me that he won’t let me cross the Jordan River.”

I wonder how did Moses feel?

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Discouragement, confusion

How did Moses feel?

He spoke with God like a friend

yet how did he

feel at this end of this life?

Our Lamb is a Lion

A Feast of celbration

I long for the Feast of the Lamb

our Fiancé,

our betrothed,

our Promised One

He longs for us as we long for Him

I long for the Feast of the Lamb

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Our Lamb is a Lion

His roar is mighty.

It shattered the veil of seperation.

The veil of death, the veil of the temple,

The veil of the spirit,

He bridged that gap.

Our Lamb is a Lion,

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Our Lamb is a Lion

Feast of the Lamb

I long for the Feast of the Lamb

A bride waits eager for her groom

I wait for my LORD, His day

A feast of hope and joy

I long for the Feast of the Lamb

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I long for the Feast of the Lamb

The Feast is beyond my imaging,

a time of Joy and Reward.

To see the long departed,

the Living again, the resurrected

I long for the Feast of the Lamb.

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I long for the Feast of the Lamb

The Lamb’s Feast, a banquet of God

Heavenly Joy, beyond human limits

capacity of joy and pleasure,

Connection beyond flesh,

Spirit to Spirit intimacy

I long for the Feast of the Lamb