what would making amends look like or be?
would that be, clarifying the ways
in which addiction impacted my behavior toward them?
(Even though when I disclosed addiction I did not specify that.)
It seems the making direct amends is
trying to be specific with the apology,
and knowing,
and understanding,
and articulating exactly what behaviors
were not good,
and specifying an effort to do better and in what ways improvement shows,
and specifying specific ways that the addiction impacted my behavior.
I’m trying to understand
because there’s a person I know, a coworker, and others I’ve messed around
with in a bedroom sorta way.
And so I’m trying to figure out
God put those people on my heart
to make amends with.
So I’m also trying to figure out how to address that.
Because I do think they think
I’m very much together and have everything figured out and working–
and no.
Nope,
very much NO.
Martin Write 