I look around, I wonder where You are.
I see You on the horizon, waving.
I looked down, and realize I am off the path.
You stay where You were. You did not leave me.
I left You. I wandered away.
I’m the one that must return.
You are steadfast and faithful. You are loyal and true.
my nature is faithless. But you make me new
I allowed delay to happen,
I got distracted from my purpose.
the tasks of the day/ filled my mind with a hazes
and I did not do you called me for.
I did not focus on your kingdom,
I did not do the tasks you gave me.
I was confused by the every day, by the ephemeral solid world around me–
Not the truth of You.
I wandered away distracted,
I felt overwhelmed with what I must do. I tried to handle it alone.
And I did not trust in You
I confess my arrogance; I confess my mistakes; I’ve been selfish, and gluttonous, and lustful to the brim.
I’ve been arrogant and prideful. I thought I could do everything on a whim.
I was wrong, Dear Lord. I come back humble and broken.
Again, learning the mistake I’ve done
10,000 times before.
I hope to not make it any more. I pray to not make any more.
To let you work in my life, to let you handle things–
it goes so much better, so much smoother,
when I do.
I know that!
I’ve experienced it.
I can do nothing on my own.
Even Jesus said it.
If that’s true of him,
It is definitely true of me.
Friend in Christ is found.
a new opportunity abounds.
a new sibling in the family,
another life saved,
I knew friendship for forever.
Friend comes to see me,
all I have to do is be me.
the masks, and the guards,
the cultural petards,
the spikes, and the diplomacy.
He was supposed to come for a visit.
I’m somewhat disappointed he missed it.
There were no drink set, the house was a mess.
Now all I do is fidget.
praise is a love language.
God is love.
it is a way He want to receive love.
it is one of the ways God expresses love
to praise
to give admiration
to admire
in more than words though,
in action,
in offering,
in dedication.
actions of service:
an action given in offering,
where no one knows but you and God.
This is praise too.
I am beginnings
I am a challenge overcome
I am victorious because of the Son
I am a child of my King
I am His joy and His delight
I am a royal offspring grafted in and fruitful, I hope to ever be
I hoped to be a prism for His light
I hope to build what I can
I hope what I build stands
in my own effort is nothing, with Your help is all.
the master craftsman leads me.
I answer and obey His call. I do not understand it. I do not know where He leads
I feel at a loss for words. I feel at a loss for these:
comprehension, understanding, the boundaries of the world,
my flesh, my sense of self,
the limits of who I love.
my hatred, my debauchery, my lust: I bid you goodbye.
my hope, my connection, My peace: I bet you welcome.
my Christ, my King, I am Yours.
Higgledy piggledy roo
The mouse was in the room.
The soup boiled up in a golden cup
Then tabled the DVD too
truth or lies I’m standing in
they resonate beneath my skin
I’ve known my doubt
I’m filled with fear.
it rings in me from ear to ear,
From my toes to my head I feel like I’m drowning.
Yet I stand in You
and You have me surrounded and Your light and Your glory and Your joy
tries to reach me.
Your peace feels just out of reach,
Beyond the clouds of haze and confusion.
fear, I know not from where, that fills me to the roots
of my hair paralyzed to move,
afraid to make a sound
to move will make it worse.
Indecision abounds.
cookies
Gluttony is my sin,
cakes, frosting,
at least it has been for a while.
breads, juices,
We talk of all the others, but not have that one.
eggs and meats
Why is that?
Martin Write 