When I’m angry with God
when I’m angry, I’m bringing it to God.
When I am angry with other people,
with things
with situations,
I bring those things to God.
When I’m angry with God–
I know if I bring that to God,
He will allow me
to yell, and rant, and be incoherent, and in
pain, and just be angry,
even though it’s with Him.
Even if I say “God, I’m angry with You.”
And then He’d say, “Okay, tell Me how you feel, express it to Me.”
And I’d say “I’m angry with You.”
And then I would be angry, and tell him exactly how I feel, and why, or even just share the emotion with him.
And we would sit there.
Then He would ask, as He always does:
“Can I have My say?” or
“Do you want to know what I think about that?”
And then I am
scared, because sometimes when
I’m angry, I want to stay angry.
And sometimes my anger is
justified and sometimes it is not.
But sometimes I do not want to
hear what God has to say about my anger.
especially when the anger is
towards him, justified or not.
He is wise,
and patient as long as
I am seeking Him, seeking reconciliation.
There’s times, in my pettiness I don’t
want that. But I have to choose
to hear him out. And he’ll wait,
when I’m angry.
Martin Write 